choosing to go with the flow

I've chosen a hard option.

To celebrate that which I do not have.

I have it but I don't.

I have generally railed and ranted and complained and whined and moaned about my propensity to choose that which is - in my perception that is - the unavailable and out of reach.

This time I choose to say "well yes...in this context its unavailable but in that context there it is very much available"

This time I choose to say "I'm totally able to accept and embrace this choice I have made despite the angst is causes me outside of the present moment".

My heart wants to do this.

it's crazy.

wrong.

stupid.

unavailable.

NQR. (not quite right).

It makes beautiful, wonderful, amazing sense exactly where it is.

I'm celebrating the ubiquitous ambiguity of unavailable love.

..................................and the theme song for the week is

Franky Goes to Hollywood's "Relax"

"Relax"

Oh oh
Wee-ell-Now!

Relax don't do it
When you want to go to it
Relax don't do it
When you want to come
Relax don't do it
When you want to come
When you want to come

Relax don't do it
When you want to to go to it
Relax don't do it
When you want to come
Relax don't do it
When you want to suck to it
Relax don't do it
When you want to come
Come-oh oh oh

But shoot it in the right direction
Make making it your intention-ooh yeah
Live those dreams
Scheme those schemes
Got to hit me
Hit me
Hit me with those laser beams

I'm coming
I'm coming-yeah

Relax don't do it
When you want to go to it
Relax don't do it
When you want to come

Relax don't do it
When you want to suck to it
Relax don't do it (love)
When you want to come
When you want to come
When you want to come
Come-huh

Get it up
The scene of love
Oh feel it

Relax
Higher higher

Hey-
Pray